express check-in

right.
so.
ive made some startling discoveries of the past two days about some people i thought i might have known.
which is dumb because i barely ever talked to them.
but still.
i was surprised.
lets just say that first impressions can be incredibly incorrect.
and i guess i didnt really think about it that much until just now.
and id love to talk to someone about it, but you dont know the people im talking about. and you wouldn't understand.
i promise. you wouldn't.
i dont even understand. how can i expect you to?
but thats all.
i expected writing this to give me some sort of relief.
it hasnt yet.
probably because its a whole lot of nothing.
i guess ill just say that i almost got caught up in something that might have been very devastating.
well.. that helped a little.
im never this emotional. its weird.
i feel like my insides are in a blender.
itd be cool if that could stop. soon. lol

black anemones

im leaving for band practice in 2 hours.
how exciting.
this is the beginning of my 4 month period of lifelessness.
which isnt a word i dont think.. but whatever.
who cares.
im going to carowinds on saturday. because im cool.
and i havent seen my friends from usc camp in a really long time.
so there. :)
i think im going to go read. because i dont have anything else to do..
oh, and secrets really suck when you really want to tell someone, but you cant.
thats all.

tres palos negros.

i just got back from oboe camp.
because i'm a dork and go to things like oboe camp..
:)
and it was awesome.
i was totally one of the best ones there.
but the best thing about it was definately my new oboe that i just bought!
yay!!
i'm so incredibly excited. you have no idea.
its a loree royal.
because im awesome.